| wow, it's been a long time |
[05 May 2006|08:55am] |
So yah, I haven't been on this mess in a long time. I have become an official Myspace addict, and to be honest ... the only reason i'm probably on this is cause I said I would stay off myspace for 24 hours ... haha. But, I hope you are all doing well. Come visit me in "Myspaceland", My Myspace. I love you all, and take care.
much love
buddy xxx
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| Seek the truth ... it will find you. |
[26 Feb 2005|01:13am] |
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truth.
So often we feel as if we are searching for answers to questions for which there are no answers. We beat our heads against walls, and attempt to understand concepts which are completely out of the grasp of our knowledge. When we stop attempting to understand why things happen, and just allow life to happen. Step away from the things that so easily entangle you, and have faith that the truth is actually searching for you.
Until next time, Rock it with a smile.
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[06 Oct 2004|11:01pm] |
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Passion
What are you passionate about? Is there anything in your life that you are willing to die for? If you did die today, what would you like to be remembered for?
You may think that you will live forever, but none of us know when we will die. And even if we don't die until we are 100 years old, you still won't believe how fast your life went by. And at that moment when you realize that your life is about to come to an end, you will reflect back on all that was important, and realize that you wasted so much time.
Honestly, that is life ... and most people will never take the advice of the great greek philosophers, and carpe diem, or seize the day. But take my advise, seize the day, in love, truth, hope, dreams, and your passions ... Seize the day.
Until Next time, Rock it with a smile.
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| Carpe Diem |
[06 Oct 2004|10:57pm] |
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Passion
What are you passionate about? Is there anything in your life that you are willing to die for? If you did die today, what would you like to be remembered for?
You may think that you will live forever, but none of us know when we will die. And even if we don't die until we are 100 years old, you still won't believe how fast your life went by. And at that moment when you realize that your life is about to come to an end, you will reflect back on all that was important, and realize that you wasted so much time.
Honestly, that is life ... and most people will never take the advice of the great greek philosophers, and carpe diem, or seize the day. But take my advise, seize the day, in love, truth, hope, dreams, and your passions ... Seize the day.
Until Next time, Rock it with a smile.
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| Life. |
[29 Sep 2004|01:42am] |
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So it's been quite a long time since I have posted. I have been asked to come back, I will not make any promises of consistant posting, but I will say that I will drop the occasional inspiring, thought evoking note every once in a while.
I don't mean to jump in with the boxing gloves on, but I have some pretty big thoughts on my mind. So let's start ... right where I left off.
Life.
I am 21 years old. How many people at the age of 21 can say they have ruined their life? How many can say they have started down an endless path of which they can not return?
Sadly, many can. Luckily, I am not one of them. I talk to many people my age who already have children [ don't get me wrong, children are the most beautiful, amazing, coolest thing in the world ] But at this age, they have already been left by the other parent, they are living on welfare, and honestly this is a rough hole to dig yourself out of.
I have seen to many people my age incarcerated for life ... a long, horrible life.
I have seen to many people my age with their life cut short.
But here we are, the youth of the world ... the future of our world, and what are we doing? Not much. This is a main reason I stepped away from LJ. I felt as if I could be contributing my time more efficently towards promoting greater issues. We have thoughts, beliefs, cares, concerns ... and darn good ones if you ask me. We are the voice that is rarely tapped into. We remain silent when we should speak up ... and blab when we need to shut up
We only have one shot at life, one chance to make a difference. Do you want to make the difference by slopping burgers a Micky Dee's? I think not.
If I make $1 a month, for the rest of my life, but make a difference, and help. I will die happy. If I make $1,000,000 dollars per hour for doing something that is worthless, and helps no one, but have the finest cars, homes, jewlery, and clothes ... I will die a pitiful, sad man.
HAPPINESS. The one word that means everything. Now is only temporary. Do something that will always make you happy. THIS IS WHAT MATTERS.
Do you want to lie on your death bed and think. "Gosh, I really wish I would have done something more for the world, I really wish my life, actions, words, and thoughts would have helped others." or think "I have left an eternal mark on society. I have lived a joyful, upstanding life.". The choice is up to you. I can not choke you with my words. Yours can do that on their own.
Take the step, the journey is long ... but worth the effort.
Until Next time, Rock it with a smile.
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| Uhhhh, I'm not dead. |
[26 Sep 2004|01:00am] |
Hey all, I'm fine.
As some of you saw, and other's were spared the trouble, someone decided to post on my journal and tell everyone I had died.
As you may notice, I am not dead ... I am actually perfectly fine.
I can only assume that the person who made this post intended it to be a joke. Some people have horrible sense's of humor. I can only hope that this post was not malicious in intent in any way.
As I mad? Of course not ... It takes a lot more than that to make me mad, but I am disappointed.
Who am I disappointed in? The writer of the post, and myself. The writer for obvious reasons, and myself for some slightly less obvious reasons. I must only somehow blame myself due to some sort of neglegence in password protection which allowed someone to gain access to my account.
I personally apologize for the hassle that this person has created, and can only hope that by further protecting myself, I can avoid further problems.
Anyways, I am fine, I am doing amazing, and even though this lame joke has caused problems, I am confident that GOD will use this to further his Kingdom in some way.
If you have any questions just drop me an e-mail and I will try to check it and get back soon.
Take care, and...
Until Next Time, Rock it with a smile.
[ORIGINAL FALSE POST]
I regret to inform you, that the author of this journal is no longer with us.
Eric was involved in a horrible accident while he was working on a critical patient at work. It appears as if a semi-truck did not see the ambulance with it's lights and siren on and struck the ambulance on it's side, toward the back. Eric died shortly after, yet his efforts sucessfully extended the life of the patient he was working on.
Eric died at a local hospital on September 24th, 2004 at 447 PM.
He will be greatly missed, yet I am sure he does not miss any of this at all, for we all know he had a greater meaning, and purpose in life, and his happiness was rooted much deeper than in what is tangible
I just wanted to say how thankful I am for this influence he had on my life, and the great things he did in the lives of others.
Any comments that are left on this journal will be passed on to his family and loved ones.
We miss you "Buddy". We will never forget, or stop loving you.
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| The last breath story. |
[28 Jul 2004|01:34am] |
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Fear
Watching the show "Fear Factor" intrigues me. Though I rarely watch Television, I happened to catch that show today. I used to think that people feared the unknown. Not knowing what will happen next is always something that challenges a persons stability, yet I have noticed that in this show people fear even what they have just seen someone else do. For example, they were jumping out of a hotel window. Person after person went, and everytime the safety line would stop them moments before hitting the ground ... did this make people realize "Oh, I'm gonna be fine ... I'll just chill on the way down."? No, person after person freaked out.
I feel that different people have different tolerances of fear, pain, whatever ... but in all honesty there is nothing to fear at all ... well for some there is something to fear ... post - death.
While I know what is happening to me after death, most people don't ... or at least they think they know, but don't truly know.
If you don't truly know what is going to happen to you after you die, then you really do have something to fear. I'm not big on scare tactics, so I'm not going to get into the dirty details, I'm sure you've all heard it from a million televangelists. What I am saying is that there is no hocus - pocus, there is a real way ... If you want information, don't dial 411, I'd be more than happy to fill you in.
Fear not what is here on earth, but what you don't know past your last breath.
Until Next Time, Rock It With A Smile.
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| Dedicate your soul. |
[23 Jul 2004|12:01am] |
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Dedicate yourself to doing something noble simply for the reason of doing good for no recoginition, and do it.
The rewards that you store up in your heart are much more valuable than the ones you store on shelves.
Dedicate your soul.
Until Next Time, Rock It With A Smile.
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| Retro May 13, 2004 |
[20 Jul 2004|03:29am] |
One thought that hit me several times today, that I think is something that many people ignore is that, people change.
Yes, believe it or not, that bully in the 7th grade, who made your life so horrible, may now be an amazing, intellectual person. Yes, it may be.
We, as humans ... seem to hold "Life Grudges". If someone spills their milk on us in 2nd grade ... we hate them for life.
This isn't how we should be, we need to let go of these weights that bear down on us, forgive them and move on. If you can, try and talk to this person, they may now be a great person.
Give them a chance.
Until Next Time, Rock It With A Smile.
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| Embrace Diversity |
[20 Jul 2004|03:15am] |
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Theology
What does it mean to you?
What does webster have to say?
Main Entry: the·ol·o·gy
Pronunciation: thE-'ä-l&-jE
Function: noun
Inflected Form(s): plural -gies
Etymology: Middle English theologie, from Latin theologia, from Greek, from the- + -logia -logy
Date: 14th century
1 : the study of religious faith, practice, and experience; especially : the study of God and of God's relation to the world
2 a : a theological theory or system b : a distinctive body of theological opinion
3 : a usually 4-year course of specialized religious training in a Roman Catholic major seminary
I honestly feel that there are no two people in the would that can critically examine theology and assume the same conclusion. I feel that everyone has a different belief on God when it comes down to all of the nitty - grittys. While we can categorize ourselves into the most closely associated groups, we all still maintain our differences. If there were no differences, there would be no need for elder boards, church leadership, decision committees, ect. We would all stand in a circle, say the exact same revelation we received from God and agree. This is not the case.
It is the most awesome feeling in the world to sit down with my girlfriend Lauren, and talk about our theologies. I maintain that the most important part of our relationship are the comment elements of our beliefs. We pretty much identical beliefs, I say pretty much because I am sure that someday there will be a difference that arises, yet it will probably be so insignificant that we won't care ... like what order Noah put the animals on the Arc. We took a two day break from our relationship this past week, where we both examined the honesty, and purity of our feelings. We both took some time to truly decide if we feel that we are right for eachother, and if we want to pursue a serious relationship. We both came to the same decision, and we grew much stronger through the process, I love doing things the right way. The time we spent as "non-dating" was good too, we had some very interesting conversations, and grew much closer.
Talking to your loved ones, no matter how they fall into your order of importance, about theology is very enlightening. I enjoy talk to people about what they believe and why, no matter what their beliefs are.
If you don't want to learn about others beliefs, you embrace ignorance.
Embrace diversity
Without it we are all boring.
Until Next Time, Rock It With A Smile.
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| Persevere |
[07 Jul 2004|03:49am] |
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I'm so over the internet.
If you haven't noticed, I've been gone. You probably haven't. I don't think I've touched my computer since the last entry, and that was a while back.
I find myself much too busy with summer, work, and fun, to even think about coming on here. I apologize.
Today I upholstered my truck with my homie Danny, We both did our trucks in snow leapord velour. It rocks.
I asked Lauren out last month, on the 21st ... She said yes. It's amazing to actually do a relationship right, to date a girl that has it all together, has a strong, normal home life, a level head, an amazing personality, a strong relationship with God, and so many other blessings ... not to mention she's hot ... very hot.
It was perfect, cause you know how you'll meet someone that would make a perfect girlfriend or boyfriend, but by the time you realize it they have become too close of a friend for that. Well we noticed when we reached that fork in the road, and we choose the right way. Her parents love me, my parents love her [ my mom won't shut up about her ] which is cool, cause my mom has not liked any of my girlfriends. And the coolest thing, she lives like 2 minutes from my house.
Right now she's in Wales on a Missions trip with church ... she's been gone for almost 2 weeks ... I miss her. But it's all good.
I've made horrible choices when it comes to girls in the past, I wouldn't let it happen again, I set up protection, and it worked ... Persevere, don't settle for "the next best thing" ... you will be shocked when you meet somone, and everything is right. I thought I had experienced it in the past, and I never had.
Persevere.
Until Next Time, Rock It With A Smile.
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| Take Care. |
[19 Jun 2004|10:08pm] |
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So Lauren and I went on our first "date" last night. We went to dinner at Red Robin, saw "Dodgeball" [ it rocked ] and then went over to a friends house and hung out. Heh, I totally did that "stretch your arms and put it around the girl" thing ... it rocked.
I met her parents last night too, they rock ... she also has a freekin Saint Bernard dog ... it's huge, it tried to slobber all over me, but I got skills like a bull figher and ditch it.
I had a really awesome time, we have soooo much in common it was great, and we just work great together.
We're still in that "talking" stage, but if things keep going this well ... I forsee myself asking her out soon.
A word of encouragment ... times will be rough in life, and you won't understand why things happen the way they do ... but things will eventually fall into place, none of us will ever know when that time is ... but just be patient ... I'm still waiting, but I'm still young.
Take Care.
Until Next Time, Rock It With A Smile.
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| I can't wait to see what happens. |
[17 Jun 2004|04:47am] |
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So I haven't updated in a while, and things have happened so I figured I should update.
I had my first interview with my background investigator for the Sheriffs Department on Tuesday ... Even though she liked me she said that anyone under 26 is too young for the power a police officer has ... but I passed, and have a polygraph test next tuesday ... yay, fun stuff.
I've been spending plenty of time breaking in my new truck in the hills ... and washing/waxing it in my driveway ... I love my truck.
I've also been spending a lot of time with friends. Especially the girls that I haven't spend much time with in a while. So I noticed that I was developing feelings for one, but I wasn't sure if I was ready for a relationship yet after the last thing. So I chilled ... I talked casually to a couple of friends about it, and they agreed that she is an awesome girl, and that she's a lot of fun ... we all noticed how well we get along ... but that's not rare for me, I pretty much get along with everyone. So anyways, I was talking to my homie Danny today about it, and we agreed it was a cool possibility ... but there is no rush for anything ... I've decided to step back to the better way of going with the flow.
By the way, the girl's name is Lauren.
So we were all gonna go to the drive-in tonight, and I was stoked ... on the way there I found out that Lauren didn't get off work for like 10 more mins, so I decided to meet her at work so she didn't have to drive alone. I pimped out my truck with blankets and pillows in the bed, and my bean bag chair, we got to the drive-in, and everyone else was there ... probably about 15 peeps, Lauren and I were chillin in the back of my truck, and other people kinda rotated in cause we could comfortable sit like 3 or 4 back there, when Lauren and I got on the topic of secrets. It became evident that she had a secret she couldn't tell me, and I had my thing ... so I kinda milked it, and eventually it came out the she liked someone, I told her my secret was the same, then we went for a walk, and she told me she liked me .. score. I told her I liked her. We went back to the truck and watched the next movie ... Garfield, and then we went to Dennys.
I'm comforable with going with the flow ... and this is really fun.
I can't wait to see what happens.
Until Next Time, Rock It With A Smile.
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| Good Stuff |
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Paul Harvey Writes:
We tried so hard to make things better for our kids that we made them worse. For my grandchildren, I'd like better.
I'd really like for them to know about hand me down clothes and homemade ice cream and leftover meat loaf sandwiches. I really would.
I hope you learn humility by being humiliated, and that you learn honesty by being cheated.
I hope you learn to make your own bed and mow the lawn and wash the car.
And I really hope nobody gives you a brand new car when you are sixteen.
It will be good if at least one time you can see puppies born and your old dog put to sleep.
I hope you get a black eye fighting for something you believe in.
I hope you have to share a bedroom with your younger brother/sister. And it's all right if you have to draw a line down the middle of the room,but when he wants to crawl under the covers with you because he's scared, I hope you let him.
When you want to see a movie and your little brother/sister wants to tag along, I hope you'll let him/her.
I hope you have to walk uphill to school with your friends and that you live in a town where you can do it safely.
On rainy days when you have to catch a ride, I hope you don't ask your driver to drop you two blocks away so you won't be seen riding with someone as uncool as your Mom.
If you want a slingshot, I hope your Dad teaches you how to make one instead of buying one.
I hope you learn to dig in the dirt and read books.
When you learn to use computers, I hope you also learn to add and subtract in your head.
I hope you get teased by your friends when you have your first crush on a boy\girl, and when you talk back to your mother that you learn what ivory soap tastes like.
May you skin your knee climbing a mountain, burn your hand on a stove and stick your tongue on a frozen flagpole.
I don't care if you try a beer once, but I hope you don't like it. And if a friend offers you dope or a joint, I hope you realize he is not your friend.
I sure hope you make time to sit on a porch with your Grandma/Grandpa and go fishing with your Uncle.
May you feel sorrow at a funeral and joy during the holidays.
I hope your mother punishes you when you throw a baseball through your neighbor's window and that she hugs you and kisses you at Hannukah/Christmas time when you give her a plaster mold of your hand.
These things I wish for you - tough times and disappointment, hard work and happiness. To me, it's the only way to appreciate life.
Written with a pen. Sealed with a kiss. I'm here for you. And if I die before you do, I'll go to heaven and wait for you.
Send this to all of your friends. We secure our friends, not by accepting favors, but by doing them.
Good Stuff.
Until Next Time, Rock It With A Smile.
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| Just do it. |
[07 Jun 2004|10:36pm] |
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Have you ever wanted to tell someone something, but worried that the risks outweighed the possible benefits?
What if the risks were gone, would you still tell that person what you wanted to? Or would you still hold it in?
I know you've probably heard this a million times, but wondering about what could have been is much worse that the possibility of a bad outcome.
Just do it.
Until Next Time, Rock It With a Smile.
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| Feel the burn. |
[04 Jun 2004|10:20pm] |
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Pain is good.
Not just physical pain, but emotional pain is good just the same. Why you may ask? The emotional, physical, and mental pains that we endure in life define us as who we are.
Think back on some of the most painful things that have happened in your life emotionally ... see how you grew from those times, and how you have been defined through that situation.
Think back on some of the most painful things that have happened in your life physically ... see how you were made stronger, and became a better person through them.
Without pain, there is no growth.
Going to the gym feel's good ... but yes, there is pain involved at times. Sometimes when you push yourself, as you should be, you become sore, or tired ... but the end product is worth it.
When it comes to any kind of pain in life, I challenge you to be headstrong, and turn it around to be something productive.
Feel the pain, and
Feel the burn.
Until Next Time, Rock It With A Smile.
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| I never realized how much chicks liked guys in furry sandals. |
[04 Jun 2004|12:52am] |
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Nature and I had a little battle yesterday. I put up a good fight, but as I sit here rubbing Aloe Vera all over myself, and extra strength muscle cream on my knee, I've come to realize that I lost ... big time.
It all started out with the great idea to go to the beach, it was all good, as I rubbed on the Sunscreen that I later realized was SPF 4, I felt that I was protected. We were rockin the waves on our boards, when I took one a little too late, I slammed my head on the ground and thought I had just broke my neck, then I got flipped over and the wave slammed me down and crushed my legs into the ground at which point I thought I had just broke borh of my legs.
Next thing I remember I was staggering to the shore, when I realized that my friends were still in the water and I went back out for some fun. Once we got out of the water, I realized how badly hurt my knee was, I decided to relax it off and I fell asleep on the beach.
I now have the worst sunburn I have ever had, and I'm a total gimp with my jacked up knee.
So, I've totally been sporting my orange, furry sandals for the past few days, and today they were the best thing in the world to have, they were all comfortable and junk on my painful feet.
I've gotten so many compliments on my sandals over the past few days, and even more today at school when people saw my sunburn ... I guess they felt bad, but it did make me think ...
I never realized how much chicks liked guys in furry sandals.
I guess I'll have to wear them more often now. ;-)
Until Next Time, Rock It With A Smile.
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| They're all you'll ever have. |
[30 May 2004|09:08pm] |
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It's so easy in life to let the most important people in your life, slip right between your fingers. While they are always a phone call away, you seem to skip straight past their name in your phone book. You can't bring yourself to completely erase them, because they are still a part of your life, yet not enought to push "Talk" when you pass their name.
Every single person you will ever come in contact with, no matter how grundgy, nasty, smelly, ugly, beautiful, nice, cute, or clean they are, is a person, and they can contribute so much to your life.
Don't let anything come between you, and those you are, were, or will be close to.
They're all you'll ever have.
Until Next Time, Rock It With A Smile.
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| Don't become distracted by the little things. |
[28 May 2004|09:51pm] |
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Did you ever notice that in life we seem to make a huge deal about the little things that don't matter, while the huge things that really do matter pass you by? I don't know what it is about the human mind that makes us do this, but it sucks.
We are all to often distracted by the tiny details, and lose out on the most important things in life.
Don't become distracted by the little things.
Until Next Time, Rock It With A Smile.
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| They Need You. |
[24 May 2004|10:37pm] |
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So my partner and I got dispatched to a car accident up on the mountain we cover, it was in a town called Idyllwild. We were cruising up the mountain when the Ambulance on scene said they could handle the patients and we got cancelled. Instead of going back to the ghetto that I normally cover, my partner called dispatch and asked if we could stay on the mountain and cover that area, and they said yes. We were stoked.
Here we were, standing in the midst of beauty, surrounded by nothing but trees, a lake, cows, and other beautiful stuff that man had no part in. It was a big change from the concrete jungle I normally work in.
If you haven't noticed from my other posts, you will now. I love nature. I love the sky, clouds, stars, trees, flowers, animals, rivers, lakes, streams, blah blah blah. Though I could never live without nature, I can't stand to be out of the city for too long.
On the drive down we stopped at a lookout point. My partner was smoking a cigarette as he always is, and I was looking down onto the city. Here I was, standing in perfection, and beauty. Everything seemed right, I could stand right there and basque in the sight forever. But just in sight was the city. Someone was fighting, someone was shooting up heroin, someone was dying, someone was being born. Yah, I'm sure all of this wasn't happening at once, or I would have heard it all on the radio, heh ... but just the fact that we can be perfectly comfortable where we are, and just out of sight is someone in pain, someone hurting, either physically or emotionally, and someone who needs us. Yes, someone needs YOU.
Step out of the comfort, and help someone.
They need you.
Until Next Time, Rock It With A Smile.
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